The Man Of My Hatred



The bottom of my heart just sinks and sinks
I just can’t think
My mind just doesn’t comprehend,
What a loser I must have been.
Looking past the bruises that colored my skin
Having to deal with his torment all over again
Not listening to reason
But maybe hopping to have these smiles begin
Dreaming of having another man in my arms
Hoping when I wake that he wont smell like the bars
Picturing myself in another place, in another time
When he beats me at the drop of a dime
Having to sleep next to him and hear his heart beat
Wishing that his heart would just admit defeat
Every time we make love
I wonder if he’s had enough
When will my torment end  
When will my shattered heart mend
How can I leave
And keep him deceived
I want out
And I am saying this without doubt
I’m going to leave
And I will not give him a second of grief